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Love: The saving Grace and the slippery grave

2010-06-11T01:32:00.000-07:00

Easy to slip into but difficult to stay or get out. They say true love comes across once a lifetime. Yep. Damn right. It comes once but they don’t ever talk about it staying, do they? And why not? Simply for the fact that human perceptions are like a ball filled with the past. And yet, the quest for it never ends. Look up to the future holding the past in my head hoping for a ray that will provide enough justification for me to disbelieve the past. Is that what it is?

And why does past play such a role? Why are we so attached to the past? Because we are
historical in nature. The very fact of our birth is a product of events that span further into the past than imaginable. Few agree, a lot disagree and most do not understand this equation. But this is the logic that drives people to behave and think the way they do.
Anyway, back to lovely Love. I feel a sense of bloody outrage when I listen to people professing true love, continuous love and never-say-die love. For all you know, one, you are lying to yourself. Because you don’t love anyone any more than what you are getting in return, May be your thoughts are shrouded by inadequacies in emotional intelligence to the effect you don’t even understand why you feel what you do for another. Two, people change. You change. I change. Environment changes. Three, you are in a never ending quest for answers that satisfy your ego; of course, you have to in the least convince yourself, if not boost your ego about your own greatness. Constantly brooding over the defects in the other doesn’t make it any better. And there are pathological cases. People who get so attached to one idea or event in the past that it completely blinds the sense of purpose. Misdirection yet another.

Let’s consider this. I may not understand a person. But I am only too keen to show to the
individual that I am there with him/her in all his ideas, his life….either it’s just an effort to increase my presence in the individual’s scheme of things or I genuinely want to know. In both these situations, I have to be prepared for the unexpected. Expecting a response that is acceptable by my standards sounds pathetically immature. You are exploring new ground, trying to experience and expose yourself to ideas and events that you never knew. How can you ever expect them to fit your current perceptive framework? Does it sound insane yet? Wait. There is another. I need to have an open mind. Err….what’s that? Yeah, yeah, I have a very open mind. But as soon as I hear something that conflicts my current belief system, the brains fall off through the same open space and emotions take over. Then comes a series of imbalanced acts. Classical traits are that you show utter care and concern when the individual is present while when they are absent you are busy brooding over history for answers.

Second point in people professing true love, that makes it sound absurd, is the relative acceptance of the individual’s past. Know about it. Don’t judge it. You weren’t there when those events happened. You don’t even know what you would have done in the same situation. It’s only imaginable but nothing more. May be, in your sane and well kept mind you have done things that would have pissed the shit out of people yet you would have felt justified about it. You cover it up for yourself, you can justify to yourself and you can forget it, since it is your “past” and does not necessarily have any meaning in your present. This is exactly how you would like others to treat you. Have you observed that when someone discussed an unpleasant event from your past all you could muster up was a frustrated angst for the person and get defensive in front of that person? First, the person is a good friend so they appreciate your emotion and the turbulence. Second, the same logic of “How does it affect my life?” works there. If you were to show you angst and emotion in front of anyone who was party to the event that took place in the past, you would reactions much different from this one. Why? Something of “mine” is at stake…reputation, pride, property or ego. This is what drives you to find a confident for yourself instead of taking it out on the individual concerned. Moreover, it’s always a matter of how transparent you live you life that enables you to probably be daring enough to challenge your own behavior in front of the affected party.

Third thing to true love is the sense of integrity and commitment people speak of. I can probably write enough to fill the pages of a book on human evolution for this part. But I will try to make it short:

1. Definitions and principles: It’s not about better or best, It’s about “What is” and “What Ought to be”. Unfortunately, when you deal with an individual, who is sure of whatever they do whenever in time and live life with no regrets, you are against a stone wall. They will not try to fit themselves to your framework. That’s the simple truth. Second, how much of their principles, ethics, definitions etc, no matter how unacceptable they may seem to you, have landed them in a state that they would kick themselves for their actions? So have you ever landed in such a state? Then you should now know better than to question “Why?” There are always two things about anything. About knowledge, it’s this. You either know or don’t. Then you got two options again. You either accept of give up. You cannot stand in the way questioning aspects of a phenomenon that is not in your capability to comprehend. That is the established fact of life. If you do, all you’ll end up is in a state where you feel dazed and hopeless. Now again, there are people who come back and have questioned me about my principles, knowledge, ethics etc that I have framed all of these to suit my personal preference.

Well. Now I’ll tell you why it seems so. Before that let me tell you that this is not a mechanism to confuse you. If you think the objective is to confuse or if you have got yourself confused in the above paragraphs, it’s your sheer inability to comprehend the subject at hand and not an intention. People with string logic have always, historically, been blamed for creating confusion. Not that what they said didn’t make sense but it’s just the immaturity of the audience. And then because of the same immaturity and repeated instances of “confusion” you brand the individual as smart and cunning but not the one to believe. Back to the subject of personal convenience. Say I have a principle that I follow, like I do not drink and drive. Now I have worked on this from the stage of it being just a thought, analyzed with all available facts, synthesized a process for adaptation into it and finally put it into rigorous practice. Remember, this might take years. And then, I tell you that I don’t drink and drive. And I tell you that I have never had a late night accident. I reach back home safe and then declare “Look I reached safely because I don’t drink and drive”. Sound like a line specifically woven to suit personal convenience, giving and ego boost and a typical show off. Now, for people who just look at the first step in the process and jump to a conclusion it might sound like the following:

My ability to control my drink is too low so I can’t drive
I am lying so that I don’t put myself in trouble later
I am too scared of what might happen if I do it
I am a law abiding citizen
I have a passion for showing off ethics and principles

It might be any of the above, but missing the one point. I know you have already started to think on these lines. But did you realize that the while you were brooding over these negative possibilities, it might be impossible to think beyond them?? Nature is kind. She’ll give you whatever you look for. You go looking for shit; you’ll surely get enough and more. But the one missing point is that you have already forgotten my lines about thought formation, analysis, synthesis and practice. And then say you are an individual who has had your fair share of life and it has given you enough conflicting thoughts about faith, confidence, belief etc then you have had it. You, for one, do not have an undeterred faith in what you claim to believe. Two, you try to evaluate this person’s principle and try to fit the established into the evolving; sounds interesting. And of course it will appear that the other person is trying to fit everything to personal convenience. The thought has been there, taken root and grown into a strong habit that the action is always in sync with the words spoken. May be in everything he/she says. Simplest
of all, what are you that you are even trying to judge? Were you not the same one who said “Err…I have an open mind, I want to learn, and I want to understand better blah blah blah…”????? So where is all the learning approach, ability to have an open mind etc now? I’ll tell you what happened in between. You wanted to learn, not because you really wanted to learn. You wanted to understand so that you can eliminate the conflicts sitting in your head about this person. Unfortunately, when the barrage of unacceptable concepts kicked in, your sanity turned into emotional vanity. Now there is no learning, no bull crap, just do something to soothe my ego so that I don’t fall apart due to hopelessness and desperation for understanding. And you expect to learn.

2. Decision making and Indecisiveness: It may sound well out of place but your consistency and rationale in decision making does play a major role in how well you live to your albeit untrue concept of true love with integrity and commitment. Let me ask you how long it takes for you to choose, from a huge range of options, what to eat? Or which shirt to buy? Or which watch to buy? Let me also give you a possible answer, Forever. The answer in most cases is “Forever” not to denote any lacking in the individual but due to the inherent inconsistencies in choices made and the driving factors. Say you had a pleasant drive but you are starving. The situation is adverse but your mood is not upset. So you’ll settle into some cheap food without qualms and say “wow, road side food is tasty”. If you happen to see a rat sniffing at the vessels, the immediate reaction is about hygiene. Damn me! How in a fraction of seconds your priorities changed? The same food you were relishing suddenly becomes a thing to avoid. But let’s take it that you ate it due to an absolute lack of choice. Very innocuous phrase, this one. “Absolute lack of choice”. Doesn’t sound like anything where in fact, it is, everything. The want for a decision only arises in a state where there is choice. Now in life, you chose to be with someone, not because you were pushed into it. Then you say I am committed. Then you get to see and hear things that weren’t poked into at the time of commitment. To save your ego, you pushed yourself into a state where you were left with no choice. Then since conflict arose, you are looking for options. The immediate options available are to find what is lacking here somewhere else, to curb natural want or need or then dry out your emotions. So where is decision making involved here? Ha ha ha!!!!! Got you reeling? It’s a good feeling to see someone hapless and hopeless, sadistic? Nope. It reaffirms that I am on the right track and there are things in me that a lot of my anthropoid neighbors are yet to discover. Decision making comes in at the point where you didn’t miss reading but missed understanding. “Then since conflict arose”….this where the doors of choice opened up. You can attempt to evade but you will infinitely recourse to this same point in trying to make it better for yourself without making a decision at this point. At this point is where all the indecisiveness that characterizes your being right from sudden changes in priorities to taking two hours to choose a shirt you would wear for one day in a month kicks in and makes your emotional intelligence go diving deep into the abyss. In such a state your frail attempts at understanding logic fail. Simply because of two things:

a. When you are emotional, your sense of logic doesn’t fail. It just stops. Screech!!!
b. When you burst out and vent due to the frustration of the conflict, your emotions and words pour out too fast and your logic cannot keep up.

Come on. State one thing in life that would not do without logic or reasoning excepting those that are taken for granted, like why do I have to pee? But when it comes to explaining your own behavior you refute the need for logic and justify that not always things follow a logical path. Sounds inconsistent? Familiar? And the ramification of such behavior is immediately on the individual you so truly love. Like the rat spoiled your lunch, your rat is your indecision regarding your approaches to situations. If you everread the Definitions and Principles part well, you would by then know that having a well established, unshakeable and practical system of principles, you are never in indecision. Because you have already made your choice. Your action and decision is pre-programmed. Your guiding system will come to your rescue and tell you, “Look kid, this is what you have been, so make sure what you do now is still in line with what you have been doing”. SO then there is your answer for all the stops made in life thinking about
what to do or what to try.

3. The Quest: Now to talk of the ever present human nature; we are social beings, emotional, caring, we can reason and we judge. The problem is that over centuries and millennia of existence and evolution, things have somewhat come to be taken for granted. Especially the aspect of reasoning. Ask a school going kid why he bows down to God. You’ll know what I am talking about. The sense of reasoning has been conditioned to most aspects to an extent where questioning them or having an alternate opinion is Blasphemy. And we do all of these without ever considering the repercussions or benefits of either doing or not doing it. We are just Zombies moving about mechanically in a programmed environment. With all of these, one stupid ass crazy damned fool stands up and says to the Zombies, “Hello!! All of you don’t even know why you exist, you are no more natural”. Now this is the crazy insane individual you are in love with or is your son or is you teacher or someone close to you. For the fear of persecution and ridicule you try to “normalize” him by asking him to reduce his level of liberties, by challenging the fundamentals of his notions and try to fit him into your framework of assessment. This would be the same exercise of trying to pull back in air that has left the balloon.

Let’s consider the following aspects of human behavior versus animal nature:
Animals eat, sleep, procreate and die. If need be, they adapt. If they don’t adapt, they die. Humans created technology, invented modern mechanisms to understand biology nature, psychology and formed civilizations, built a great many empire, wrote history, went on conquests, explored new lands, realized GOD, formed varying systems of religious beliefs etc etc. What are the driving factors??? Sex, hunger and Adaptation. Nothing more, nothing less. My uncle is in US and I want to talk to him. It’s a need. So call him up. How? Cell phone. What does this denote??? Need?? Nope. The causative is a need, the driver is adaptation. In an ideal scenario, you would meet your uncle in person. You adapted to the inevitable truth of his absence by which manifested a need for technology that prompted you to go looking to buy a cell phone. Isn’t it so sad to realize you are still an animal in your existential truths? So is your famed tag of “CEO….Triple PhDs”. It’s still basic. You need to earn to feed yourself, may be you feed on some minced pork while I settle for bread. It’s the same driver all the same. So you are an animal. So it shall be written!

Someone instituted a system for reproduction, just like an assembly line in a factory where raw material is inspected and granted sanction to be used for manufacturing. Your parents inspect your groom/bride, you inspect them too, then a sanction is granted to go ahead and marry. And then you end up playing badminton all your life. Is that why you marry? Nope, you get married to get laid. Legally. Which is why extra marital and pre marital relationships are viewed from a largely negatively skewed angle. And then, what is the basic point in any of these relationships? Married, unmarried, extra-marital, gay…whatever….SEX. It’s the ultimate objective. To have a freaking orgasm. When you weren’t having any, you didn’t know what it was, you largely dreamt of true love. Now that I have shattered you perception you are but left with one choice. So Decide. Or is it going to take so long even now?

Then again, the institution of marriage has a large part to play in keeping up the drama created by your so called heroic and divine ancestors. Now I have to say “you” all the time, because you are human (as your mind is still fighting to resolve) and I know for damn sure that all I am is and will be, a simple animal. Marriage, keeps bonds tight for a lifetime. Yes, the same ones where you keep cribbing about a nagging mother in law or a sob story soap influenced wife or sister in law or an alcoholic irresponsible idiot of a husband. It is true that these bonds keep you happy. But as everything in life and NATURE (For your kindest information) everything is supposed to be temporary. Unfortunately, for you, in your quest for that eternal peace and happiness, you try to make all of these permanent and suffer setbacks. After about a couple of centuries of all this crap, this becomes the norm. A problem that became inherent in the system and is now accepted as “part of the package”. Now who created this?? Did nature ask anybody to marry?? Excepting swans and a few species of birds that live together for a lifetime not because of love or any such illusion but because of the natural selection where their period of co-habitation determines the continuous reproduction cycle from a specific genetic pool, nature warrants no commitment. And first you thrust upon yourself a law that doesn’t exist, second you accuse others of not abiding by these “morals” which have no place in the original scheme of things anyway. It is but true that when you digress from your point of origin you cannot see why you shouldn’t be doing something. Then you start inventing words like infidelity, morality, elope and counter your “oh so beautiful” animalistic orgasm as an artistic way of expressing emotional coherence. Hmph!
The dictionary is too full but the world is too void of any expression but for some programmed response. After such a beating you take at the hands of your “society” you wonder why sages and other the other greatest enlightened ones always preferred the “company of god” and lived in jungles. You darn idiot of an ass. They weren’t in any company of a some idealistic God. It was a simple attempt to avoid all of these unnatural manifestations of human existence that you created out of your reason but have stopped reasoning. Why the heck do you think then people say that he who wants God needs to renounce this world??? Because in this world of your there is no good, nor god. It’s full of fallacies and lies that drive you against your own nature. In doing this, the basic essentials of the original “raw material” are modified and any chance of approval of anything outside of your small little disillusioned framework is negated. Now talk to me about true love and humanism. And about my madness. And why you can’t understand me. And why can’t relate to my thoughts. And why everything I say and do seems like it’s tailored to my convenience. I am peaceful. I have no conflict about what I believe. I have no reasons to doubt myself, my ability or my existential truth. I have absolutely no regard for morals and rules that are man made except that I, as an animal, adapt and pretend to follow for the sake of survival. I know what I am, what I want, what I need and where I belong. I distinguish myself from the crowd and I have a self identity strong enough to beat the bullshit out of anyone. I rarely seek help and I am self sufficient. I am never indecisive and have no regrets about anything I am or decided upon. I see there is no problem for me to deal with.

You have a problem with almost every single line of what I stated above or related to it. So
who needs to go to work? Me or you?

Yours Peacefully
The Godman
MCMLXXXII A.D.

I caught a Cobra...a couple of months back, actually

2006-12-06T03:03:00.000-08:00

I am sorry to upload a photo with my undies hung out for drying!! But thats where I found this spectacled cobra hanging out, literally! This snake found a peculiar attraction to the undies and climbed onto the rope I have tied for drying clothes and refused to climb down. I had to jerk it up a few times to make him climb down...obviously no usaing hands right away to catch him...he has got loads of that thing called VENOM!
This fella wasn't quite as big as the ones I have caught earlier...but he seemed very aggressive. It was a long period of tnse interaction b/w me and the Cobra. I finally got him and packaged him in a sack (phew! It was hard to actually stuff the guy into a sack!) and later released him into a farm land nearby.

A trip to Western Ghats

2006-12-06T02:55:00.000-08:00

Wrong season wrong place. Dense fog, winds at over 60 mph and rain of over 30 cm. But right set of people fully equipped. Mentally prepared to face some horrible weather, zero visibility and awful winds! Spare it all, coz we were treated to the sight of our life...the mountains, the trees...wow!!!

We wanted to cross a river that was almost as if mother earth had all power accumulated in this one place...nah! we didnt cross it, next time....when she is a little cool ;) The forest, it was lush, wet, and foggy all over....we didnt see the sun in the sky for almost the entire three days.
The Drive- Hats off to the driver of our vehicle for getting us thru to and fro! With all possible beams and fog lights, we could hardly see, even at 12 in the noon, abt three feet in front of the bumper except on occasional good visibility! worse, we drove at night....

And now the REAL problem abt these beautiful ranges of forests, Asia's longest Tropical forest range and Asia's Largest Bio-Diversity area, The Western Ghats. Its all beautiful, u roam freely in the forest, run into trees, occasional patches of grasslands and wat not....and u stand still enjoying the serenity of the quiet moist and beautiful weather (if u think so). Then u feel a little eery in the foot or inside ur shoes or just below ur socks (sometimes even in ur armpits or back if ur are running thru bushes) and feel it with ur hands. You find that place has become soft and plump, as if a swelling developed. You undo your shoe lace or pull down ur sock and you find the most stealthy, rampant and populous predator of the range - LEECH! Awk! :) and now time to stop the bleeding, as these bugs inject anti-coagulants when they bite and hang on to your skin, just so they get fed weel thru non-clotting streams of blood from ur body. And by the time ur bleeding stops, there is one more in someother place on ur body....good fun (Thank god, I escaped without a single leech bite in the whole expedition)
I know by this this time u must be thinking we are insane or crazy beyond words...but thrill and adventure is always risky, and the pleasure of being with nature in this season is unmatched.
It was great fun, dangerous and thrilling all the same...interested in stuff like this? contact me!! :D

AND FIVE FORTUNATE PEOPLE WERE WASHED OFF OUR SINS, BY HEAVY RAIN AND GUSTS OF WIND THAT COULD TAKE US AWAY, ATOP A 2500FT MOUNTAIN AS PUNISHMENT (BY MOM EARTH) FOR SUMMITTING IT!

A 2 Z of meee!

2006-12-06T02:30:00.000-08:00

A: All that’s in nature is beautiful
B: Black is my favorite color
C: Conscience is the measure of the honesty of your selfishness
D: Down to earth (well not completely yet!)
E: Every thing happens for a reason
F: Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe
G: God’s my best friend
H: Health is wealth, can I buy a Mercedes with that?
I: I am not a tease, I am just an example of wat u can’t have!
J: Jump up when ya can and fall flat when ya cant! (rock climbing habits!)K: K2, wanna climb it some dayL: Love to live, Love to laugh, Love to Love
M: Married to music, Metal, Trance, Madonna, fusion, instrumental, anything!
N: Never say die
O: Old wine and old scotch are not only for old men
P: Pets-cats, snakes
Q: Quote O’ mine- Are you from Mars or are u just dumb?
R: Rugged terrain, and a Harley Davidson…aaaahhh! Heaven is what?
S: Snakes, reptiles – Am a herpetologist
T: Thankfully single!
U: Up above the sky so high, wats up there??
V: Vote for Jack Daniels! (Budweiser, if not!)
W: Wats that thing called fear?
X: Xtreme metal, heavy metal, death metal!
Y: “Y” is always a good question
Z: Zestful, always!

The relationship between Me and Thee

2006-12-06T02:27:00.000-08:00

I ME MYSELF

This is my view of the divisions in any person. There are three divisions in the person’s entire self, including the physical parts of that person. This is what I propose out of the meagre knowledge I have. This I propose because I wanted to understand why I as a person have so many conflicting thoughts inside myself. When I use the words “I” or “ME” or “MYSELF” when I am speaking in a general sense, I do not refer to the PROPOSITION made by me.

THE “I”

The “I” signifies the divine particle in a person. It is the explicit symbol of the soul. The “I” or AHAM is the “Paramaatma” in a person. It is the “BRAHMAN” that prevails upon all material and immaterial things in the entire cosmos. This face of the “I” is generally dormant but peeps out occasionally as what can be termed as the “CONSCIENCE”. But the second form of the “I” is the hyperactive “EGO”. It is present in every lame person and this mask over the “AHAM”, when shed, paves way for realizing the “BRAHMAN”. It takes just one sentence to say about self-realization but one entire birth may not be enough to achieve it. Like a new shiny snake emerges after shedding its skin, an entirely new person is seen after he wins over his ego. Like the shed skin, the “EGO” is very unclean and hence man should try to shed it. The lame way to do it is by “ATMASAMARPANA BHAVA” as proposed by many great people. Whatever one does for his/her pleasures must be offered as worship to the divine. Thereby it is possible to shed the “EGO” and realize the true self. Sri Shankaracharya has described this in a verse in his work “SOUNDARYALAHARI”. The goes like this-

Japo jalpaha shilpam sakalamapi mudraa virachana,
Gatihi praadakshinyakramanam ashanaadyaahuti vidihi.
Pranaamaha samveshaha sukhamakhimaatmaarpanadrushaa,
Saparyaaparyaayastava bhavatu yanme vilasitam.

{All this has already been said as a part of other theories. So nothing new can be said as every high thought has been explained before. This is a combination of various thoughts that I am able to interpret in a certain different sense.}

The relationship between the three parts can be understood properly only after understanding the “MYSELF”.

THE “ME”

The “ME” is the symbol of what actually the person is, as seen by the outside world. It is the beast natured feature present in every one of us but suppressed in different proportions in different people. In this, there is both good and evil. The “ME” signifies what others see in that person. In a society, his attitude, physical appearance, behaviour and his character are all seen by people, which is nothing but what he is in the society, that is, “ME”. What am I in the society? is what the “ME” in a person all about. This part is predominantly active and has a close bearing on the “EGO”. This is why people react so spontaneously when they are spoken to or something is spoken about them. This part cannot be shed but it can be made to be dormant by a conscious effort to regulate the senses and their reactivity. The “ME” is a part of the mind and so by controlling mental fickleness the “ME” can be brought to the stage of dormancy. This is the wherein the thoughts are diverted towards the “I” or “AHAMKARAA”. The best example for this stage is a person who was known to have been in this stage, Sri SADASHIVA BRAHMENDRA. This is also, as far as I can comprehend, the Samaadhi, as illustrated by PATANJALI in his “ASHTAANGA YOGA”. But this is only the stage of Savikalpa Samaadhi, which is directing the flow of thoughts in only one direction. Further from this stage, the “NIRVIKALPA SAMAADHI” can be achieved by the eradication of the “VRITTI”, that is the mental functions or simply thoughts. To achieve this there has to be a regular disciplined and striving effort by the “JIGNAASU”. After the ultimate is achieved, there is a congregation of the three parts, namely, “I”, “ME” and “MYSELF”.

THE “MYSELF”

The “MYSELF” includes the mind, the think-tank of the human and all his physical parts. The brain and the mind are the parts that are most prominent. The “MYSELF” is that part of a person that thinks, through which only a person expresses his feelings and communicates with fellow beings and accomplishes many tasks. It is the medium of exchange between the “I” and the “ME”. Thus it is interactive. The “MYSELF” is a dependent factor. Unless the other two parts unite, the “MYSELF” continues to prevail. The “MYSELF” is what a person thinks about himself, knows about himself and interacts within himself, i.e. all the conflicting thoughts that arise, the confusions that take place etc and also through which he learns about the outside world. Thus the “MYSELF” is an important part the person. It is through the “MYSELF” that a person can achieve the union of the “I” and the “ME”. The MYSELF has a great influence on the “ME”. This because the “ME” is what others perceive in a person and the “MYSELF”, being the medium of exchange, highlights only the good qualities to outsiders and helps in nursing the selfish and harmful ambitions within the person, not revealing it to others. This is why people tend to say one thing and do something else. Thus the “MYSELF” helps others to feel the “ME” to be good. Hence there is great power in the “MYSELF” to help a person to either progress or even to bring his own or others’ downfall. Thus is the result that people pose to be good, hide their bad intentions and also act unlike what their own real instincts provoke them to be.

The “I” is purely divine and spiritual. It does become powerful unless it is realized. It has its own individuality and is existent in a person by birth. The second “I” is downtrodden and filthy. It is powerful in all selfish and self-centered people. It takes form from the moment a person starts to become selfish and concerned about himself. The “ME” is normal and worldly in its existence. It is neither strong nor weak. This starts to exist from the moment the person becomes a part of the society and recognized as an individual. The “MYSELF” is powerful, both interactive and dormant depending on the situation and state of the person (sleep etc). It is the only part that has tangible coalitions (the body) and takes help from these to function. The “MYSELF” comes into existence as early as in babyhood when the baby starts reacting to the outside world.

The “I” is absolute and powerful when realized. The “I” is the only particle that exists in total independence. The “ME” is neither independent nor powerful. It is a highly intangible but real factor. The “MYSELF” is consciously powerful. It is the one that causes the gap between the “I” and the “ME”, i.e. makes a person to appear unlike his true self and at the same time helps to realize the true self when prompted by the “I”. the mind is the major cause for this kind of functioning of the “MYSELF” due to its power of thinking. The “MYSELF” is highly intangible to the person as he does not differentiate between the three particles in him. In terms of power, the “MYSELF” comes second. The “MYSELF” is a highly dependent factor and its existence is dependent upon the existence of the “I”, (mainly) the second “I” and the “ME”. It cannot exist by itself. Hence clarity in thoughts leads to accuracy in actions.

NOW, what is making me write all this is the “Myself”. The “ME” in me is Nanda Kalyan G.S. and for the “I”, I wish I could realize it.

“I”--- Aham or Brahman
“ME”---- The person as seen by others (Who is he /she?)
“MYSELF”---- What am I to others?

And if you didnt understand any of wat I said above, feel free to ask. Dont feel bad, a lot of people have no knowledge.

Metal Videos

2006-12-06T01:55:00.000-08:00

For all you metal freaks like me out there, here is are a couple of links for you to explore....videos only

Good collection of all old and new vids - http://www.gauntletvideos.com

Near to good collection of Metal vids - http://www.metalvideos.ru/download.html

Okie Dokie collection - http://www.hdpvidz.com/videos.html

And now the bait.......the MP3 site that sucks (coz its slow) but if you have the patience you can download.....especially if you have been dying for a particular song since a long time, get it here-
http://kot.spb.ru/mp3

Now dont try to get me killed if any of the above dont work....I just used these a few times and good to share!